It's hard when the sounds and smells and memories come around in the mind again, it's like you're here but your mind keeps seeing glimpses of the past, just to realize that things are gone and everything that is my comfort and shelter is gone. Forever gone.

Goodbye

I went to see a friend's remain for the last time before she is shipped back to NY.

It was very hard to accept when it first happened, seeing her fading in front of me, I'd better not remind myself any of that part anymore, time to skip.

I'm surprised how fast it is to recover from a friend's death...

It's been nearly a month and now I try to avoid seeing things that she gave me, other than that I just try not to think about her, her face, her warm hugs.

So many losses I can barely stand. Too many. Let's not think about them.

hard

I used to have no idea about the entire "finding love" thing but now I know it's really pretty hard.

People around me are all not of my kind.